cemburu?

aku pernah dengar soalan ni..mcm mane nak hilangkan perasaan cemburu,jealous,envy tak bertempat...?sampai menganggu fikiran dan merosakkan akidah bila mempertikaikan takdir tuhan..contohnya soalan2 typical yg sering bermain kat fikiran aku...knape dy ade emak ak xde?knape hidup dy senang tp aku x?...knape dy dpt markah mcm 2 tp bkn aku?hahaha..senang je..manusia hidup xpernah puas...sentiase nak lebih..xpena bersyukur..bnd ni lah menjadi masalah aku sekarang...orang ckp cemburu 2 satu perkara yang sihat..hasad dengki yang kadang2 merosakkan hati...aku benci dibesarkan diselubungi benda2 mcm ni..susah untuk give and take..susah untuk akui kesalahan sendiri...hidup tak pernah nak bersyukur..sentiasa mempertikaikan dalam hati, bermain dengan perasaan sendiri kenapa aku dilahirkan serba kekurangan...bukan macam orang laen...kurang dari segala aspek terutama sekali kasih sayang...aku malu,segan kadang2 terpakse menumpang ksh syg dgn mak ayah kwn2 sndiri...tak pernah sekali tertinggal dlm doa aku agar tuhan balas jasa mereka yg da banyak menghabiskan wang,mengorbankan masa dan meminjamkan sedikit kasih sayang untuk aku sbb aku tahu....ihsan mereka tak mampu aku balas dengan wang mahupun beribu ucapan terima kasih...melihat rakan2 zaman persekolahan menempuh zaman remaja mereka dengan menjadi insan yang lebih sempurna, terdetik dihati kenape aku tak boleh jadi mcm mereka? mereka x perlukan ibubapa mereka untuk berjaya..memperbaiki diri tidak memerlukan kudrat insan lain untuk  mendorong kita berubah..semua atas kehendak diri sendiri....

bile la mase aku nak berubah..
banyak berfikir lately..
maaf kerana merapu..
slow~

real scene

semester kali ni..untuk pertama kalinya baru aku dpt rasakan nikmat sebenar menjalani latihan klinikal..bukan ape..sepanjang dua bulan di hospital selayang..aku terlalu dimanjakan dengan ketiadaan pesakit di ward2 yg telah ditugaskan,,ward lengang sungguh..untuk dua minggu terakhir ni..masih dihospital yang sama..cuma di ward yg berlainan..situasinya hampir keseluruhan berbeza..ward medikal ternyata menguji setiap inci kepakaran dalam melaksanakan prosedur2 yang hampir luput dalam ingatan dek kerana terlampau obses menambah input2 baru untuk semester akan datang..tak menang tangan...tetapi paling menyedihkan bila ada diantara staff2 tertentu yang mengambil kesempatan di atas kehadiran pelajar2 sepeti kami dan hanya dudk di kaunter sepanjang hari..tapi kami x kesah..kerana dengan cara inilah kami dapat mengasah  menajamkan skill2 yang telah dipelajari..tapi apa guna belajar pasal akhlak, menjaga amanah ketika bekerja tetapi dengan terang2an mengambil kesempatan di atas kenaifan siswi2 pelajar kejururawatan ini...enough said..yang pasti aku tak kan jd mcm 2..hehe..

sy ske praktilkal..

slow~

RESulT :))

ok...

happy :))))

alhamdullilah...
dekan lagi..heh

to some of us..getting 3.5 and above its not a big deal....
but for me....it is a huge achievements!
since my record at my previous alma mater was not that good..
cant barely get 2.5 and above...
yes..
in some ocassion..i dont even bother about the pointer...
xamek tahu pon...(while others sibok kre pointer..)
pathetic...
haha...
fyi..sy membesar dipersekitaran yang sgt mementingkan pencapaian akademik (yaa...mozac la)
turn up that sy xbley nak ikot pace yg telah ditetapkan skola and my schoolmate...
haha..

anyhow..things change..
sape ckp org xbley brubah?
damn..xske btol ckp psal zaman skola dlu...


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ps-sy xdpt twran upu dlu...masok uitm dip ni pon kne bt rayuan...RAYUAN tau..just imagine how i feel right now.
.
eh lupe...

doakan sy dpt fast track...

ok..mase isi permohonan online untuk ke ijazah sarjana muda..mereka mintak no giliran semasa spm dan result sekali...
perlu ke??
ok....why ak rase sgt x perlu...sbb..da tentu2 la result spm aku sucks nak mampos..
smpai malu nak tunjuk dekat kwn2...malu...
em..maen2 lg spm..(pdn muke ko!)
haha...ok..
xbley nak tolerate dgn maths actually..

esok result exam..wish me luck!
the next post is either sesi melepaskan geram atau a moment of mensyukuri nkmat tuhan..
heh..
damn cuak..


enough said..
i do hav bad feeling psl result esok..
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meet my hero :)

new craze!

Last night ive watched The Curious Case of Benjamin Button, which never comes into my thoughts of watching it and i never realize of its existence in my external hdd.
Anyhow, it is a great movie! The movie is gentle and sweet. Nothing more. Nothing less. And told most poetically.

It is the cream of the crop in the categories of cinematography, editing, art direction, sound mixing, costume design, special visual effects, makeup and original musical score..

brad pitt was awesome! did i mention about Brad Pitt being old and still looking gorgeous?

he spends his lifetime aging backwards..and this make this epic romantic movie unique in its on way..

yes..do watch this movie to see how Brad Pitt looks like in his eighty..:))

The Curious Case of Benjamin Button (tccobb) also shows that whether we live life forwards or backwards, the outside is just a shell and it’s what we choose to do with life that sifts out the best parts from the worst.

in one particular scene in the movie, there is a dialog that lingering on my mind until now,which i wish someone will tell me the same way when my mum passed away..

"Benjamin, we are meant to lose the people we love..how else would we know how important they are to us?"

yes..after several rounds of  TCCOBB repetition..

i do remember those lines..heh

its is very tiring though..this slow paced movie..3 hours duration..mcm hindustan plak..hehe..

ps-another version of forest gump perhaps.

some captures 

on

his life chronology...

80

this is when this old lady quotes the line i had mention earlier

60 i guess

 aww..middle 40

hehe..odd..

omg omg omg!

heartthrob

this is the moment when benjamin n daisy actually were the same age if u know wat i meant..meeting in the middle..

 he just getting younger and younger..

see..daisy and benjamin...age is just a number..

mcm granny take care of her grandchild..sweet..

this is when benjamin end his life..on daisy lap..

to those who hav not yet watch this significant movie..

just give it a try..

yes im outdated..movie ni da lame kot...

so what?

heh

again..i just love my new routine :))

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hibernating..

this weekends i decided to finish all dramas yg xpena terusik since amir update my 500 gb external hd..haha..
and.....i've made it!
dlm 2,3 dramas gak la..the big bang theory was hillarious! series shit...hehe
ok..season 3 xcomplete lg..da tau da nak buli sape tlg downloadkan..(ehem2..ye..awak..jgn pndang org laen..hee)
it was a lame weekend...
ni la akibatnye kalau exam da habis tp u still stuck kat campus to complete ur credit hours on clinical yg baaaanyak tu..
yes..sy xde cuti semester sem ni...
so..hibernating dkt bilik during weekends is the most appropriate n wise thing to do...
mkn..tdo..tgk muvi..mkn..muvi...tdo..haha

love my new routine :)
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the best sacrifice ever..

it started when one of my friends decided to tell this apparently an important news a day late..

which bring out this tremendous madness that i've been hold since the day i was born..

for god sake!why now??

ok...im in trouble..

then i call amir..

j:mcm mane ni...transport xde abg...free x esok?

a: xpe r..u dtg mlake..nnt abg anta...

j:mama bg ke?

a:bagii :) nnt kte g lowyat dlu..abg nak cr harddisk...

j:hee..tanx abg..

actually..turn out dat my friend bgtau last minute yg krete dy penuh utk blk puncak alm..

xkesah pon..tanx to her i dpt jmpe amir...hehe..(nada gedik!)

such a perfect excuses nak bgtau atok yg i need to take bus to melaka to get to klaNG..

yaa..dat is true because xde bas ke klang from kluang...:)

..see..sy baek sbb x outa dgn atok..

overnite dkt mlake..smpai dlm 10.30pm mcm 2..

3 jam travel from kluang..tiket siang sold out!

lalu jln lame...yes...'favret' sy klau naek bas...

amir fetched n hntar kt rmh ckgu haida (mak angkat sy!)..

ok...

nak dipendekk kan crite...

esok nye amir amek at 10am..

amir lmbat sbb tgk bola mlm td..ee..

bought some breakfast at mcd..

ok..

this is what im trying to share...

on our 2 hours travelling...we was like refreshing our oldest memories studying in mozac..

tanye amir ble dy start recognized aku kat skola 2..

dy ckp...knl u sbb u suke tanye soalan time bm mase 1 alpha dlu..

pastu da xamek tau da..lol..

apela amir ni..

bley plak time f4 baru kenal blk...

bkn nye rmai sgt student...

2 pon sbb satu set time bio..

ok..admit..sy mmg xfaymes..

haha

ble da rule out all the awkwardness between us time dlu2...

now i know we hav sumthing in common during our freshmen year in mozac...

hard to admit..ktorg akan call mak masing-masing five times a day!

yes..kebetulan same..in the morning, lpas blk sekolah..lpas blk prep petang..before or after maghrib..and lepas blk prep mlm...mmg terok btol homesick mase 2...and amir pon..haha..

ble recall blk mmg susah nak adapt mase mak meninggal dulu...u just imagine..da biase call mak 24/7..update everything dgn mak...even gadoh ngan kwn pon crite kat mak..call office mak sume....

n suddenly...mak xde...

u hav no idea ape yg ak rase mase 2..major depression..menangis teresak-esak tgk kwn2 call mak masing2...

pgang gagang public phone 2 call rumah expect nak dgr suare mak tp org lain yg angkat...

call office mak wlaupun tau kwn mak yg akan angkat..

bayangkan..sumthing yang da jd rutin harian...5 times a day..and nikmat 2 da ditarik serta merta..

i tell the same thing to amir..and we paused...mata mmg da merah mase 2..i decide tu turn my face from him..malu kot..heh..

amir end up the silence by saying

"abang kan ade...."

n he always know how to makes me smile...

it was funny though..

we argue how that i am not supposed to be homesick sbb rumah kat taman muzaffar syah n dy plak bley sbb rmh jaoh sket kat duyong...haha

tau2 je da smpai lowyat..snggah imbi jap...n i berjaye convinced amir not to spend his rm600 to buy two caviar black harddisk(hdd) utk buat rate for performance..

membazir kot..so..he just bought one..rm300..

sepanjang perjalanan i try to pretend phm dgn sgale bebelan psal hdd yg dy bkal beli ni...

haha..jahat..

end up phm jugak la akhirnye..

sikit..

through this travel ape yg aku dapat conclude..

amir da byk ajar aku mcm2...

how not to misjudged org..

appreciate ur father while u still have..because everyone deserve a 2nd chance....

plan ur fture according to ur own needs..

be strong..

n he is always there for me..

time ak dpt result terok kat skola...n smpai thap skrang...

time ade problem ngan family...

klau ade financial problem...

problem dgn kwn...

prblm dgn stdy...

prblm dgn pc :)

prblm wif EVERYTHING..

my shoulder to cry on...

.:amir rasid:.

thanks pingu:)

ur slow..heh

indah khabar dari rupa..acehceh

ok...today..posting at puncak alam bkn lah seindah yg disangka...
pg2 je da kene membebel dgn lecturer..
br skrang ak perasan lecturer nursing ni mmg mostly sume ske membebel..emm..i mean naek angin pastu tak berhenti bercakap selama 2 jam..
haha..membebel la 2 kan...
plng xske klau da membanding2 kan between batch ni ngan batch 2..
being bias..
klau nak ckp psal clinical experience 2 ok la..
masok la jugak..
n then semua org masok group masing2..choose 1 procedure..practice smpai pkl 3..
diulangi..pkl 3..
mine kne bt dressing..urghhh..nak termuntah bt dressing byk kali td..dkt dummy la..

tibe2 semua kne panggil blk dgn lcture 2..
obviously dy xpena ajar group aku..
so name pon da lupe..
haha..

pn A: awak semua sem brape?
students: sem 3
pn A: da blajar pharmacology kan?
students: daaaaahhh...
pn A: ok..kwn awk ni xdpt jwb..soalan basic pon xtau..ape name lain bg mefenemic acid?

memandangkan ak bdk plg depan mase tu dgn suare yg nak xnak kluar..

aku:emm..ponstan..

mcm2 jwapn keluar time 2..ade yg jerit vit C la..ape la..

pn A:jazlin, ulang blk jwapan awak 2..
aku:ponstan
pn A:mane awak tau?pernah bg kat patient ke?
aku:emm..penah..pastu slalu kluar exam..mintak contoh trade name n generic name..sy bg la contoh med ni...
pn A: slau nak bg medication ni nak kne bg ape?
aku: antacid..sbb postan dlm kategori opiod..gastric is one of d side effect..

haha...
bangge siot..kembang idung time 2 dpt jwb...yg laen sume senyap je..mmg basic sgt2 kot..
xtau r apsal bdk2 ni xtau..
lupe kot..emm..

ktorg terkeluar awl time blk td..
mengamuk la dy..
xpasal2 kne dende msk pkl 8 blk pkl 4 esok..
bpak kejam..
mati kutu dlm lab 2 nt..

nak posting kat hospital...........
please..
dgr cite lecturer tnga key in markah..
series cuak..
lemah sket bab2 cm ni..

mlm..
maen futsal dgn bdk2 ni..
junior laki..hee
tnggal bdk2 nursing je..
so kami bermaharajalela..
boleh baring2 kat court 2 sbb student xde..
meroyan ape tah td tibe2 terpikir nak maen hantu galah...
gagagaga..
yaaa..sy pntas..
tp end up klah gak ngan geng mek ju..
haha..ske mek ju..bnyak vocab kelantan telah diturunkan sbntar td...
tq!

emm..ngantok..
bju xiron lg....
till d next post..

slow~

gooooooood news!!

hmm..currently dekat library hospital selayang..
kene halau sbb clinical instructor (ci) xde..
no ci no practice!
sister ward 6d ckp..

FOR GOD SAKE!

saye sgt2 suke2..
i mean very2..
very..
suke!

means..xpyah nak hadap stressful working hours..
dressing..
patients!
yaaa..
plus xpyah nak kejar cross sbb exam is over..

now lepak2ing kat library..
esok praktikal kat lab je..
til wed n then cuti raye hj..

atok..tnggu olin balik..
haha..kite anyam ketupat same2..
(advance in anyam ketupat babe..seriesly..haha)
emm..

sgt2 rndu amir...
wish u luck for ur final..
and thank you for the song abg..

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dinner..

emm..lastnite dinner was awesome..rmai yg puji..
the organizer..the performance..
as sumone yg dipertanggungjawabkan utk event ni..this is more than enough..
the ajk was being helpful..
except we all x bt confirmation early dgn dean sama ada dyorg dtg x..
other than dat..sume ok..

i was terriblely tired last nite..my leg is killing me..
lapar..student makan..we all tgk je...
blk dlm pkl 1 mcm 2..
ade post mortem sume...
penat..
seriously...
emm...

this is wat u asked for..take it..or leave it..
slow~

its a very2 short thursday night :) ..

dgn ini..

dgn rasminye tgn saye cramp..

borak thp hard core ngan iqi..3-4 jam kot..

non stop..

cayalah..

haha...

da lame gle x borak!

gosip baek punye...

rndu la kamu..

series...

blk nnt jgn lupe roger..

n cari external kat sni...

berlambak comel2...

ongkos nya mesti ada..

haha..

thanks la iqi..kurang sket beban cite kat ko..

baaaanyak lg nak cite..

tp since da pkl 1 pon ak xmndi lg...

ko pon same...

perbincangan ini harus ditamatkan..

sgera...

haha...

ngantok sudah....

nite2...

ps-ye..sy akan update blog slalu n my mouth is sealed..

buang kunci jaoh2..haha

hati2 berjalan di jalanan...jgn maen zigzag or watsoever kat tpi jln 2...

kang ade je org senyum kambing tgk ko mcm 2..

take care hun...

jgn lupe post gmbar2 2 kat blog ko..

menarik utk dikongsi..

slow~

haha....gosip yg bley dibukukan..
sengal~

its laundry day!

baju-baju beratur dgn sabarnye....

sabar ye nyah..

gmbar di atas jelas skali menunjukkan betape pemalasnye bdk2 kat puncak alam nak basoh baju..

haha..

xla..

sbnarnye nk ckp..dgn populasi pelajar kolej rafflesia seramai hampir 3000 orang pelajar..

cume 3 ekor..uik?hehe..3 buah mesin basuh shj yg disediakan untuk laundry...

common sense la u guys..

mane ckup..

hakikatnye..plajar2 skrang mane ade mase nak basoh bju sndiri..haha

ade kmudahan laundry..

kami cube gunakan sebaiknye..

tp..

xckup laaa.....

ehem2..kami?

ke ak sorang peminat setia laundry ni?

hee..

ps-baju yg blakang skali 2 confirm2 mlm ni baru smpai gliran dy..haha..satu round bju=sejam babe..slamat menunggu..

bju sy da msok dlm mesin basoh 2 da...haha

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sesa-ME street 40th anniversary

waa...

sgt2 tertarik dgn google pnye theme kali ni..

40th anniversary of sesame street...

ingat dlu kecik2 time tadika rajin btol tgk bende alah ni..

dlu xslh ade yg da siap translate dlm bahase mlayu..

saye ske..

hehe...

part plg best last skali..

ble dy ulang blk sume bnd yg da blajar hr 2...

hee..

tp skrg..

plg meluat tgk sesame street pkl 9am kat tv3..

mcm xde cite laen je...

tlg la phm..

tp i cant deny dyorg smemangnye cute2..

n weird..

haha...

sy ske cookie monster!

tp sempat nak capture theme cookie monster kat google..

haha..

pening saye xhlang lg since smlm..

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perlu atau tidak?

yesterday..
out of the blue..
acehceh....

our one and only ketua jabatan..
program kejururawatan uitm..
prof madya dr faridah hashim..
request utk jmpe sy....

nak tau sy tnga bt ape mase tu..
yaa..sy tnga tdo...
haha..
pkl 9 am...
tibe2 my lecturer...cik syikin..call bgtau..

punye la kabut mcm ape tah mandi sume..
ceh..cuak la konon...
pkl 10 mcm tu da ade kat office dy da....

hmm...
nak dipendekkan cite...
tolak mcm mane tibe2 kne than pak guard sbb xgantong kad matrix sume...
uik?
haha...
prof just nak bgtau dy da calonkan name ak utk majlis perwakilan pelajar (mpp)..
kate beliau..
jgn terkejot and just be prepared...
"sy mahu at least ade wakil nursing dlm mpp board"
esp bab2 clinical yg sering menjadi problem dlm course ni..
haha...
ala2 wakil parlimen la mcm 2..

b4 this ade je kot senior jd mpp...

haha..terkejot la sgt..
ingat ape la td..
nak soh ak tron jmpe dy sume...
mcm 2-3 min je dlm office dy cam tu..
bkn nye nak hidang air ke ape...
haha..
mrepek la kamu..

emm..calon je..
kne go thru interview sume....
doakan sy!
tp honestly..mcm xde prasaan sgt..
sbb sy xske mpp!
hahahaa

tp obviously sy mmg da bz skrg..
AMT nursing students association..bendahari 2..
gagagaga...

riak2!
jazlin..sudah la 2..
xke mane pon..

xdpt dean list nak salahkan sape?
knape sume org ingat ble da berpersatuan ni result akan drop?
emm....
depends kat org kot..



thanks prof..
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over and done..

emm..da lame sgt2 la xupdate blog...
i dont think ade org yg akan even bace any of my post..
hmm..tnga pening skrang..

sgt2 pening..
i mean very..

nak tgk distractions towards something membantu x hlangkan sakit..
so i decide to write..
haha..pening kpale tdo la..
yg pelik about jazlin jaham ni..
makin dy tdo..makin menjadi2 pening dy..

hmm...ni sume psal xm td la ni..
ish..
1st lesson for today...
dont u dare nak spot questions lg pasni!
i dont know korang pena rase x...
prasaan kechewa thp ape tah ble soalan yg kite da spot xkluar..

but basicly..i wont spot questions membabi buta je mcm 2...
3 years in a row...questns yg kluar....solid..same!
so based on that evidence...sy pon dgn BERANI spot soalan yg same!
ya..
haha..
stupid..

but im not dat lame ok..bace jugak la yg laen...nsb baek la ingat sket2..
but still...
emm...
doa la past paper td....
dats y ame ckp...
da 3 thn berturut2 kluar...
4 sure la thn ke 4 dy tukar....
hahaha..
mendela....

over and done..
mls nak meratap da...
headache!

ya..secretions hormone glucocorticoid saye sgt slooooooow hari ni..
stress is not reduce..
obviously..
yaa..sy geram stress xkluar essay!


get over it la...

hmm..
pening?
kurang la sket...

distractions theory approved...
slow~

takdir?

salah aku ke x blajar pndai2 mase spm dlu?
salah aku ke terlepas scholar jpa sbb internet connection kat sni mcm bengong..?
slh aku ke blajar trok2 dpt pointer tinggi tp family aku sorang pon xkesah...

emm..mmg slh aku..
takdir..
blajar untuk terima dgn hati terbuke..
ade hikmahnye sume ni..
rezeki ade dkt mane2 je..
ingat 2..
ingat..


slamat berpuase kwn2..
rndu mak...

slow~

game obsession?

relevant or irrelevant?
mcm XDE LIFE..
addicted?
maybe...
upgrade desktop yg mlampau2..
emm..xphm..
ade benefits ke?
i dont think so..lupe nak mkn sume..nsb baek ingat nak solat..
call xangkat..alasan?
tnga maen game..
ok..very LAME..
emm..

as long as u happy dear..

p/s-thanks to u my computer literacy is now improved..

heh..luv u..

tenggelam timbul..heh =)

Yup..da lame x update blog..
sgt..
i hav nothing to write..nothing worth to share..nothing..
but then..
last week i've participated 1st asia pasific nursing student conference at hukm..
it was rather boring..
conference je kot..
the thing is..we've been filtered 1st before we've the chance to go there..
hee..selected student je dpt..rm200 were fully paid for us..
yg x best nye..kene ulang alik all the way from puncak alam 2 bangi..
woke up at 6 am!
emm..nsb baek den ni snang nak bgn awl..

i would say that..
this conference is not worth it..not even close..because..

1) it was a 3 days conference- kene skip class from monday to wed..and on thursday ade test!
yup..im screwed..ape yg my lecturer ajar on those 3 days sume masuk..yup i do hav some lecture notes..tp x same kot!!!!eee...it is not fair..

2)the conference is all about condemning the diploma student..
they want encourage us to pursue our study in degree..but thats not mean that they can insult us in front of the deligates!! what?trok sgt ke diploma student ni..fyi..during clinical practice bdk degree x reti langsung bt keje..seriesly..my lecture sume admit..these degree student..they think dat they all x deserve utk bt keje2 kotor ni..common la..nurse is still a nurse..beze degree ngan dip is just research based subject je yg ktorg bdk diploma x belajar..yes..critical thinking..we do know how to think critically..dont underestimate us plz..

3)local nursing issues were highlighted in the conference
it was an INTERNATIONAL nursing student conference kot..i was ashamed sgt2 to those deligates from indonesia,hong kong,china etc because they have wasted their money to come to malaysia..didnt knowing dat they hav to hear all those non-of-their-business topics..ukm should improve more on selecting topics for the conference..

4)xdpt nak attend main program- gala dinner..
uitm puncak alam is too far from bangi that we hav to go back at 6 pm so that we can reach campus by 8 pm..regain energy back utk bgn awl pg esok..6 am!again..

5) penatttt..sgt3..blk tros lepak..

6)byk homework bertangguh..obviously..heh

7)emmm...b.o.r.i.n.g

tu je kot..but the food was superb..asyik mkn je kat sane..hehe..
all in all..ok la..new experiences cmni..sape nak bg kan?
da dpt join pon da ckup bgos..
byk complain plak..

anyway..

thanks uitm~
slow..

nurses day

nurses day da lame lepas..
diz is my 1st year celebrate international nurses day..
haha..
it was fun..

pwtc,seminar..
agak..emm..menarik..

hehe
this my final sem bermastautin di kl..
puncak alam pasni..

beruk..dlu mozac..
now puncak alam plak?
xtau nak ckp ape..

it is more comfortable though..
away from haze..
traffic jam..
hectic pace of life..
and..
away from mid vel..
sunway..
masjid india..
times square..
kl sentral..
away from freedom!

new resolutions lpas ni..
--> saving more and more money for the next sem..

god..
thanks for listening..

JAzlin~

comeBAck!

with ain,cik sha, me and alya...

me and alya..

my certificate..hee

da lame x update blog..

yes..almost a month..

many things happen..final exams..

malam pra graduan and hari kecemerlangan..

Blue WAve Shah Alam..

the theme was indie and vogue..

nothing much to wear actually..

so i just improvise..=)

it was boring actually since it was a senior night..

me,ain and alya..

three of us..

isolated..

hee..SERIOUSLY...

this sem things get a little bit harder..

the subjects..clinical sessions..

xtau bley maintain ke x..

i mean the pointer..

wish me luck guys..

slow~

abg olan~

hAppY birthday!!

this post is dedicated to mohd jazlan a.k.a abgku yg poyo..

smoge panjang umur n murah rezeki..

jgn asyik demam je..

hadiah nnt claim kat ak ble ak ade byk dwet nnt..

haha..

18/3 huh?

emm..

tua2..

21 kan?

emm..agak dewasa..so be matured bro..

haha..

syg ko..

hee..

CAn u Spot THE differENTS?

2009


2007

this picture was taken 2 years ago..

gmbar ni ak dpt from nadia mase pg utp hr tu..

xpena expect pon gmbar ni wujud..

haha..

thanks nadia..

mase mule2 tgk agak terkejot..

too see how much i've change..

da tak secomel dlu la..hehe

nak tips diet..??

jgn sgan2 tanye..hee..

slow~

PES??

Pes tournament..

Pro Evolution Soccer 2009 (abbreviated as PES 2009) is a football video game in the Pro Evolution Soccer series by Konami.





pes maniac..

Gameplay has been changed for Pro Evolution Soccer 2009, with key additions to the Teamvision system, tactics change according to situation, off-the-ball fluency AI recognizing strategies that works accumulating data on an ongoing basis within Master League and League modes. Another new addition is the readjustments for ball movements. PES 2009 has new air resistance calculations for the trajectory of the ball. There are also new friction routines to affect ball movement in terms of ground conditions, backspin routines are calculated so that ball slows accordingly, and the bounce of the ball can be used more effectively: players can flick the ball up to tee a shot, or to lift it over a defender's trailing leg. If a player has the ability, they will be able to perform skillful turns. PES 2009 will also feature a new game mode called 'Become A Legend', much like EA Sports FIFA Series.

ok..

i've been wondering around utp for 4 days..
and just can get rid of pes out of my hearing sense..
every single day..
my weekends at tronoh was unexpectedly change by this thing..
days and nights..
why are they too obses with this all-u-hav-to-do-is-just-sit-and-play thing??
all the way from kl..
this is what i get..

M-I-S-E-R-A-B-L-E??

haha..

but things slowly changed..

after amir won the pes tournament..he qualified to final..and got 2nd place..(1st abg hasif..u guys from mozac sure kenal..haha..bdk mozac hebat gle maen pes)

not bad huh?

RM200..kind a worth it..

then..

its time to kikis dwet amir..

hehe..pg ipoh..

lunch at secret recipe..
not to mention extra cakes i've ordered..lasagna..milkshake..(i swear i never felt so hungry before..hehe)

then got something from him..

a huge teddy bear..

im not fond to those kind of thing before..

but to receive it from someone so special..

makes a tremendous differents..

thanks dear..

nothing much to tell during my trip to utp..

except while waiting for amir to complete the tournament..

i've watched some movies he landed to me to keep me occupied..

or else im the one who gonna makes his weekends miserable..haha..

(evil me)...

slumdog millionaire,wild child..few episodes of HOUSE..

heaven..if and only if i can steal his external hard drive..hundred of movies!!

(ok..jazlin..stop imagining something weird darl..just ask him to lend u the thing..)

that is the problem..

he wont..because he cant live without his external..

good things ame so baek..he make copies of few movies i've listed..

thanks again dear..

during my last day at utp..

we manage to have a walk at tasik..

nak jogging tp due2 mls..hehe

amir obviously nampak sgt mengantok..7 am kot..

hmm..

confirm2 la jarang bgn pg jogging..

it was refreshing though..

thanks to nadia n ieda for the room they prepare for us (mariam n me)..

thanks to imah for the matrix card..hee..
thanks to syira for the shoes..

and last but not least..
thanks to ame kerana menaje mkn dan minum selama 4 hari di utp..haha..
i would say..
my trip to utp this time..helps me to discover different view of seeing amir..
things that i never even thought..
and how much i would appreciate things around me..
his tremendous support..
holistically..
after 2 months not seeing each other..this trip was totally worth it..
amir is different from the 1st time i knew him in (form four if im not mistaken..)
and i love the way he change...

morning..

on our way to jusco ipoh..

watching the sunrise..

study..hehe..tuesday ade test

love,

jazlin..

2 weeks after the trip..

kecik nye dunie..

last friday..27 feb..thre is a camping held in ulu bendul,kuala pilah..

sume bdk yg amek koku kesatria kne pg..

senang cite..sume bdk nursing kne involve..

1st day was good..

xpena expect pon camping kesatria would be this fun..

we departed at 3.30..

smpai dlm 5.30 cm 2..

psang khemah..

then mlm ade ice-breaking..
klau nak tau la..last sem punye cmping sgt menakutkan..
there is one comander..yg xpena stop maki2 we all..

comander diana if im not mistaken..

bdk mass com..

sgt geram ngan dy sbb dy pena tendang kaki aku..

well..nsb baek camping kali ni dy xjoin..

it was like other ordinary camping..

explorace,jungle tracking..

guess what?mase jungle tracking tu..

i met someone..someone yg i know very well coz dy satu kelas ngan aku dlu..

my ex-classmate..

mozac..

in the middle of nowhere..

tnga2 hutan..
mcm mane nak describe eh..ulu bendul ni even dkt dlm hutan pon u can still see the water stream..

and time ak jmpe dy 2..he's all wet n odw nak blk..

mase tu da consider ckup dlm (amatlah ceruk ) pade ak..location mase ak jmpe dy..

and i was like..kind of screaming to him.."****!'' (teke la sape..haha)

sbb excited sgt la konon jmpe dy tnga2 hutan ni..

and sgt la terkejot rupe2 nye ade awek cun follow kat belakang...

emm..ok..

it was a short hi-hi conversation..

coz we walk in a group..so we are not allowed to stop..

all the waY until the end of this jungle tracking..i kept thinking how weird this meeting is..

hmm..sbb jungle tracking ni gak ak dpt fever..

hujan mase ktorg turun nak blk 2..
sgt lebat..

so class on the next day was terrible..

i mean really terrible..

edema at the eyes..

few misunderstanding during the lessons..which later brought me to confront cik sha..

lack of sleep..sgt2 lack..

kene dtg gak coz assignment xhntar lg..

tanx naem..for the tremendous support..
i was shock to see u..come when no ones care..
im sorry cik sha...

reason only u and i know..

just really want u to know that i have no intention to do that..

(it was nothing actually..just being too emotional in her class)

tanx madam suchitra..for the chocolate..and let me dismiss early during your class
really appreciate that..

tanx everyone..

jazlin~

what goes around comes around

hmm..
mcm mane nak ckp ek..
my worse day ever...test yg agak bias..
it is not fair to know some of your classmate..have already done the questions..of course they score way lot better than me..but still..it is not the main point..its just..dont u people want to know your own limit and estimate how far you can perform so that one day..when there is no past year questions review..or those reliable senior who can lend you their questions paper...you can stand by your own and score flying colours in your exams..
well action speaks louder than words..
prove to me that im wrong...
good luck in your final exams...
(it is a good strategy though..try to review your senior's past year question..haha)

it is not wrong to do that actually..
i geram sbb i xbace question paper 2..
haha..
tukar strategy pasni..

ptg plk konon ade dialog dengan dekan..dkt jln othman..
ak jadi representative utk diploma sem 2..
da la sorang2 pg..dgn uniform purple yg agak lawa tu..haha..
dewan kuliah 1b..mane ek..tebalkan muke tanye bdk2 kat situ..
nak dijadikan cite..bende tu ditunde ke hari laen
dan aku langsung xdimaklumkan..
asyik kene naye je hari ni..
da la ade kelas anatomy..
3 jam..rugi2..
byangkan lah betape geramnye ak time 2..
nsb baek kelas yg ak masok tu xrmai org..
and sorang mamat yg baek hati ni tlong tnjuk notis dialog ditunde..agak segan la..
falihin ade..hampeh punye kwn..hee..tolong gelak ade la..

agk trok r hari ni..
hmm..sgt..

till here,
jazlin

surat untuk emak...

mak..
olin ni...
da 4 thn da..mak tinggal kan olin sorang2..olin xde sape da..nak harapkan atok je..tp atok da terlalu tue untuk anggap cucu dy mcm anak sendiri..olin rndu nak panggil 'emak'..rndu yang membuak2..sgt2 rndu..
olin sihat je mak..lepas mak xde..olin mcm xde tujuan nak hidup..result exams terok..kat kelas x concentrate..olin slalu pk..kenape tuhan tarik nikmat x ade emak dan abah waktu umur olin yg sgt la mentah..masih perlukan seseorang untuk buat keputusan..masih perlukan seseorang untuk cerite masalah..masih perlukan seseorang untuk dipeluk..dibelai..dicium..
olin lagi rela xde abah drpd xde emak...
abah xsayang olin..
emak...olin nak mintak maaf...
dulu mase mak sakit olin dkt sekolah..
xdpat tlong emak...slalu menyusahkan emak...sruh emak masak tu la ni la..klau tuhan bg peluang dpt hidup dengan emak lagi..olin sumpah olin xnak mintak bukan2 lagi da..olin sumpah xnak buat mak marah..olin sumpah olin telefon mak hari2..olin sumpah olin xkan bg mak nangis lg...
satu hari tu olin telefon emak..knape mak senyap?
ckp mak...
"kanser mak da merebak lin"
ya allah...
dugaan ape ni...mak da ckup menderite da..olin xingat bile kali terakhir olin menangis seterok tu depan kwn2 olin..
olin xkire..olin nak balik...pduli ape dgn sekolah..
olin nak mak..nak ade dkt sblah mak..tp abah?
emak..maafkan olin klau olin ckp mcm ni psal abah..tp sbagai ank..olin da hilang rasa hormat dekat abah mak...olin xtau la..
mak..kalau lah olin ade peluang nak peluk mak lagi sekarang....
.......
.......
i will be the most happiest person ever...
mak..mak ingat x mase mak sakit mak ckp kat olin ape?
mak nangis...mak ckp..jage emin,arep...jage diri baek2...
belajar rajin2..smayang jgn tingggal..mak xde nnt.....jgn lupe doakan emak lin...
olin sedey...olin xdapat buat ape yg emak pesan...spm olin terok....xdapat jage emin ngan arep...
emak....olin rindu mak sgt..tuhan je la yg tau..olin tau dlu mak selalu nangis...kenangkan anak2...blanje sekola semue mak tanggung...bil api,air..klau la olin da ckup matang utk kongsi semua beban emak...kalaulah...
mase mak masok hospital dlu..olin slalu marah emak...olin mintak maaf..tau mak sakit...chemo 2nd round..sape nak??tp olin xbley elak mak...2 hr olin xtdo...jage emak...mak kat hospital dlu xtido mlm..ingat x?olin lpar..xde sape bli kan makan...olin letih...terlalu kecil utk angkat emak...tp olin tekad..klau bkn olin yg jage sape lg?olin anak emak....
emak...olin mintak maaf...
olin rindu mak...
sgt...
knape tinggalkan olin sorang2??
mak.......
i just mis u..


al-fatihah
crying~
i hate cancer!


Your Mother
Yusuf Islam

Who should I give my love to?
My respect and my honor to
Who should I pay good mind to?
After AllahAnd Rasulullah
Comes your mother
Who next? Your mother
Who next? Your mother
And then your father
Cause who used to hold you
And clean you and clothes you
Who used to feed you?
And always be with you
When you were sick
Stay up all night
Holding you tight
That's right no other
Your mother (My mother)
Who should I take good care of?
Giving all my love
Who should I think most of?
After AllahAnd Rasulullah
Comes your mother
Who next? Your mother
Who next? Your mother
And then your father
Cause who used to hear you
Before you could talk
Who used to hold you?
Before you could walk
And when you fell who picked you up
Clean your cut
No one but your mother
My mother
Who should I stay rigt close to?
Listen most to
Never say no to
After AllahAnd Rasulullah
Comes your motherWho next?
Your mother
Who next? Your mother
And then your father
Cause who used to hug you
And buy you new clothes
Comb your hair
And blow your nose
And when you cry
Who wiped your tears?
Knows your fears
Who really cares?
My mother
Say Alhamdulillah
Thank you Allah
Thank you Allah
For my mother.


i never failed to cry when listening to this song..
it always reminds me of emak...
a bit emo tonite...
but what i wrote just now...
come deep from my heart...
things that i always wanted to tell her..
tp xdpat..
agak privacy..tp i just wants people to know..
that i really love emak..
n how much i missing her..


friends,
appreciate people around u..
parents, family..
please..
yg still ade mak lagi..
jg dyorg k...
hidup ni sekejap je...
bnd ni nak xnak kene lalui jugak..
pasti kan korang bersedia mase tu...
plz..
pngajaran ade depan mate..amek iktibar k..


semoga panjang umur murah rezeki


jazlin.
(daughter to advanced breast cancer with lung and heart metastasis patient)

RM 5

hr ni mcm2 jd..

today naim n me went out to mid vel..
lpas hbs test..

bas metro pon smpai..
dgn confident nye naek..
then conductor bas tu tanye nk pg mane?
mid vel bang..(dgn nada excited)
dgn muke terkejot abg tu jerit..
benti2!!
ktorg..nape ni..
bro 2 ckp-"bdk ni slh naek bas"
alamakk..segan weyh..
sume dlm bas tu gelak..
tuhan je tau mcm mane..
ktorg dgn muke tebal pon tron r..

dgn kene gelak ngan bdk2 yg xblk lg mase 2..
dpn uitm jln othman..

tekad naek teksi..
tp bas restu barakah (bas uitm) smpai dlu..
naek je la..


the main reason sbnarnye nk teman naim cr perfume for her friend..
hehe..
but then..
i pon nk cr jugak..presents..
somethng for this coming march 11th..

hmm..survey perfume kat SAsA..calvin klein..versace..on our list..
nk pendek kan cite..
last2 xjd beli..
hehe..coz we both da tertarik kat satu purse ni..nyesal x masok roxy awal2...
naim dgl nak bg perfume gak..sape sruh..

heee...

so turn dy plak tman ak cr brg...




ktorg singgah the gardens jap..
mid vel rmai gle org..
then rase urgency nak ke toilet.
tibe2..nk masuk toilet ni..nmpak dpn tu ade counter..
"dik..rm 5 please"
huh..
PREMIER TOILET
RM 5

i was like..emmm..xpela kak...

segan nyeee...
mendela..
nak masok toilet pon kne byr smpai rm 5..

klau pk merepek gak..i rather spend rm5 tu for something else drpd masok toilet just utk melabur..



haha..



at last ade gak toilet free dkt floor atas..
nsb baek bro tepi lift tu bg tau..
hehe..
ni few pic we both amek dlm toilet..

xde keje

hehehe...







naim n me..



blk pkl 4..
(drpd pkl 11 after series of berebut cab dgn bdk2 ni..right after test anatomy)
hehe..
puas hati sbb dpt brg yg i da lame nak cr..
amir xske siap la..

mis u dear..

pnt,

jazL~

New Start

hmm..ok..
saje menggedik nak buat blog..
so far ok la..
im just hoping through this blog..ak bley kurangkan sket beban kat kpale ni..
today is my worse day ever..skt perot yg teramat sgt..
but no ones care..
amir ade friendly match..
me=alone..
xske rase mcm ni..

td ade test adult nursing 1..
its an interesting subject i hav 2 say..
patient yg nk undergoes surgery..ape nursing interventions yg bley kite apply..
pre-op,intra op,post op..
this sem da bley insert IV da..intravenous therapy..
waaa...hehe..
berbalik kpd test td..
lepas hbs je..cik sha ckp"ok,exchange your paper dgn kwn sebelah"
huh..i thought u yg tande sume..
alamak..sgan la ak..
hmm..tp btol la..xkn dy nak tande all these 61 students punye paper..
MCQ questions je..subjective cik sha tande..
we kind like revising the test paper instead of marking it..
then,..ni yg xsbr nk cite ni..hehe
i got full marks..
haha..
alhamdullilah...

ntahla..lpas spm ni..it seems like tuhan nk bg ak peluang utk ubah future ak..
education je tinggal utk ak prove kat sume org..
ak bkn la useless mcm dyorg sangke..
jazlin waktu skolah dlu..xde ultimate goal..
LOC (lost of concious)
haha
nk perform dlm field yg ak x minat mmg ssh..
plus dgn member2 yg xpena nk stop pk yg dyorg terlalu perfect utk pk yg sbenarnye dyorg xperfect..
huh..i still can survive though..


last final exam result-
ANUGERAH DEKAN
3.63..
SlOw~