surat untuk emak...

mak..
olin ni...
da 4 thn da..mak tinggal kan olin sorang2..olin xde sape da..nak harapkan atok je..tp atok da terlalu tue untuk anggap cucu dy mcm anak sendiri..olin rndu nak panggil 'emak'..rndu yang membuak2..sgt2 rndu..
olin sihat je mak..lepas mak xde..olin mcm xde tujuan nak hidup..result exams terok..kat kelas x concentrate..olin slalu pk..kenape tuhan tarik nikmat x ade emak dan abah waktu umur olin yg sgt la mentah..masih perlukan seseorang untuk buat keputusan..masih perlukan seseorang untuk cerite masalah..masih perlukan seseorang untuk dipeluk..dibelai..dicium..
olin lagi rela xde abah drpd xde emak...
abah xsayang olin..
emak...olin nak mintak maaf...
dulu mase mak sakit olin dkt sekolah..
xdpat tlong emak...slalu menyusahkan emak...sruh emak masak tu la ni la..klau tuhan bg peluang dpt hidup dengan emak lagi..olin sumpah olin xnak mintak bukan2 lagi da..olin sumpah xnak buat mak marah..olin sumpah olin telefon mak hari2..olin sumpah olin xkan bg mak nangis lg...
satu hari tu olin telefon emak..knape mak senyap?
ckp mak...
"kanser mak da merebak lin"
ya allah...
dugaan ape ni...mak da ckup menderite da..olin xingat bile kali terakhir olin menangis seterok tu depan kwn2 olin..
olin xkire..olin nak balik...pduli ape dgn sekolah..
olin nak mak..nak ade dkt sblah mak..tp abah?
emak..maafkan olin klau olin ckp mcm ni psal abah..tp sbagai ank..olin da hilang rasa hormat dekat abah mak...olin xtau la..
mak..kalau lah olin ade peluang nak peluk mak lagi sekarang....
.......
.......
i will be the most happiest person ever...
mak..mak ingat x mase mak sakit mak ckp kat olin ape?
mak nangis...mak ckp..jage emin,arep...jage diri baek2...
belajar rajin2..smayang jgn tingggal..mak xde nnt.....jgn lupe doakan emak lin...
olin sedey...olin xdapat buat ape yg emak pesan...spm olin terok....xdapat jage emin ngan arep...
emak....olin rindu mak sgt..tuhan je la yg tau..olin tau dlu mak selalu nangis...kenangkan anak2...blanje sekola semue mak tanggung...bil api,air..klau la olin da ckup matang utk kongsi semua beban emak...kalaulah...
mase mak masok hospital dlu..olin slalu marah emak...olin mintak maaf..tau mak sakit...chemo 2nd round..sape nak??tp olin xbley elak mak...2 hr olin xtdo...jage emak...mak kat hospital dlu xtido mlm..ingat x?olin lpar..xde sape bli kan makan...olin letih...terlalu kecil utk angkat emak...tp olin tekad..klau bkn olin yg jage sape lg?olin anak emak....
emak...olin mintak maaf...
olin rindu mak...
sgt...
knape tinggalkan olin sorang2??
mak.......
i just mis u..


al-fatihah
crying~
i hate cancer!


Your Mother
Yusuf Islam

Who should I give my love to?
My respect and my honor to
Who should I pay good mind to?
After AllahAnd Rasulullah
Comes your mother
Who next? Your mother
Who next? Your mother
And then your father
Cause who used to hold you
And clean you and clothes you
Who used to feed you?
And always be with you
When you were sick
Stay up all night
Holding you tight
That's right no other
Your mother (My mother)
Who should I take good care of?
Giving all my love
Who should I think most of?
After AllahAnd Rasulullah
Comes your mother
Who next? Your mother
Who next? Your mother
And then your father
Cause who used to hear you
Before you could talk
Who used to hold you?
Before you could walk
And when you fell who picked you up
Clean your cut
No one but your mother
My mother
Who should I stay rigt close to?
Listen most to
Never say no to
After AllahAnd Rasulullah
Comes your motherWho next?
Your mother
Who next? Your mother
And then your father
Cause who used to hug you
And buy you new clothes
Comb your hair
And blow your nose
And when you cry
Who wiped your tears?
Knows your fears
Who really cares?
My mother
Say Alhamdulillah
Thank you Allah
Thank you Allah
For my mother.


i never failed to cry when listening to this song..
it always reminds me of emak...
a bit emo tonite...
but what i wrote just now...
come deep from my heart...
things that i always wanted to tell her..
tp xdpat..
agak privacy..tp i just wants people to know..
that i really love emak..
n how much i missing her..


friends,
appreciate people around u..
parents, family..
please..
yg still ade mak lagi..
jg dyorg k...
hidup ni sekejap je...
bnd ni nak xnak kene lalui jugak..
pasti kan korang bersedia mase tu...
plz..
pngajaran ade depan mate..amek iktibar k..


semoga panjang umur murah rezeki


jazlin.
(daughter to advanced breast cancer with lung and heart metastasis patient)