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ohh..this is lame..
punye la lame x blogging smpai xprasan new features on the template..
so mcm org jakun la tukar template every 3 days! haha

mind me..

slow~

i dont know why!

LABOR ROOM SUCKS!

urgghhh..

like i give it a damn

thanks.

I LOVE YOU..

Everyone knows, i've lost my mother six years ago. She was diagnosed with ADVANCED BREAST CARCINOMA WITH LIVER AND LUNG METASTASIS. I hate myself for not appreciating my mothers enough..anyway, i did not expect to lose my mother this early..now baru aku perasan 50% of my post in this blog is all about her...how much i regret for my past and wish to have a chance to change it... although i know it wont happen..well i miss and thinking about her A LOT!..and that explained everything..

For six years also i've been stop making mothers day card, and eventually stop celebrating this event ((except for few years back at school, i do wish some people who care so  much about me, aqila's mother, nora's mother, ara's mother..)). i can still remember how excited i am, making cards for emak, stole a nice picture of emak and me from the album and paste it on the card. i have no pocket many at that time.thats mean i cant get my mother fancy-sweet card like my friends did. Thank god my mother liked it so much and that is the greatest feeling ever. Anyhow, in present, I didnt even remember when exactly mothers day is. Seriously.

BUT

Recently my head programme had granting us with two weeks vacations before resuming our 4 weeks posting, so i decided to balik melaka and spend a week there. now here's the thing. Not everyone knows after my mother died, Cikgu Haida treats me like her own daughter. so im kind like her foster child. She brought me to her home a lot and makes me feel welcomed. And turn out Mothers Day fall at the same week when i was in melaka. the only thing i can think about is writing her a letter. ok lets face it, i do forget when is mothers day, it was so late to buy anything..like tomorow-is-mothers-day late.

i just want to share what i wrote to her, so that no one would ever feel the same way i felt because it sucks..dont get me wrong..love for her is the greatest things ever, but to write a letter and thinking back what faith has lead you into..no one would ever wanted to feel that..

xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Mak,

mereka cakap membesarkan anak sendiri sudah terlalu membebankan, ini kan pula insan yang tidak pernah ada pertalian darah mahupun ikatan. Bau-bau bacang jauh sekali. Tapi mak lain... di saat jaz tekontang -kanting, dibebani dengan masalah keluarga yang tak pernah sudah, menjadi anak yatim piatu walaupun masih ada lagi insan yang bergelar wali, dikelilingi dengan rakan-rakan yang masih dihujani kasih sayang daripada ibubapa...mak datang..hadir sedikit demi sedikit dalam hidup jaz sampai jaz sendiri tak sedar betapa kuat nye pengaruh mak dalam diri jaz..jaz ingat lagi u cried ble jaz bgtau mak yg my mother da meninggal. and i cried too. i have no idea that it was a started to what is happening right now.

Dulu mak slalu ckp, kalau ade ape-ape masalah tulis surat dekat emak..mak bg byk sgt surat dekat jaz..each time during assembly at the hall, you will call me and i will sit beside you..tp jaz tak pernah reply any of your letter..i cant remember why..tp jaz rase mase kat sekolah dulu mmg jaz in my own "world"..jaz pena cube nak tulis..tp jaz xtau nak ckp ape...mase result spm keluar, the only person yangn boleh make me feel better is you..dekat bilik guru i can still remember what u have said to me..

"after all things u've been through..this result is more than enough"

maaf mak..i am glad u were always there for me..

mak,

if my wother is still alive,i'd rather trade the cancer from her than seeing her die. without thinkong twice. i miss her a lot. her smile, her voice, her warm hugs..mak, please take care of yourself..i cant afford to lose someone i love. again.you meant a world to me

jaz slalu doa, tuhan balas balik jasa emak yang menggunung dekat jaz, mak dimurahkan rezeki,panjang umur dan bahagia dengan anak2 mak.you are so lucky to have them.

last but not least,

Happy mothers day..

p/s: this was the exact original text i gave to cikgu haida..

the only similarities between her and my mother is both of them got breast cancer. thank god, her cancer has gone into remission.

anyway, i put the letter in her room, without her noticing it. soon ble da sampai college, she called and cried. i cant barely talk dgr suare mak mcm 2..bergetar, trying to hold her tears. we talked for a while, and at that point, i know despite all the dugaan tuhan da bg..He gave me this angel, to show me life isnt that bad after all. This is the best mothers day ever..

A BF challenge his GF to live a day without him. No communications at all and if she passes he will love her forever. His gf agreed. She did not text or call him the whole day. Without knowing that his bf has only 24hours to live because his suffering from a cancer. She excitedly went to her bf’s house the next day.Tears fall apart as she saw his BF lying down on the coffin, with a note ” You did it well baby, can you do it everyday? I love you

7) Sunday..

great things about long distance relationship, once u met.. every seconds will be treasured, every words will be kept in mind, and every goodbye is a way to promise that u will never be far apart..soon..

everyone know how much i love handmade craft..

so i decided to give amir one for our 3rd anniversary..

then i realized, ever since i was in form five..

i kept giving him key chain, buttons, and small items that i couldnt rememeber..heh

and now..

still mcm tu..

i ingat dy budak2 lg kot..

but the keychain is so cute and adorable..

haha..seeeee..told ya!

cute ek..

so i bg je la..

and he likes it :ppppp..

thanks to mariam zafirah coz bg idea nak tulis ape for room signage tu..

why room signage?

because apparently, his NEW room need some new decorations..haha

i dont know bende2 mcm ni sesuai utk lelaki x..

pduli ape..bg je la..

and since amir sgt2 addicted to coffee, and football..so brg2 ni di design according to his liking..

except for the brooch..itu i punye..

as for our outing yesterday...

it was fun!

tempat biase la..sunway pyramid..

amir get a new haircut..

and how silly we are to forget where we've parked the car..

excited sgt nak shopping..ngeh..

so kne la went thru each floor!!!

da la pnas..brpeluh kot nak cari kete..

xkesah la..

ckp psal haircut 2..amir ni jenis yg xpena get a proper hair cut..i mean from high class salon..

so i gave him a treat..

dkt APT hair and beauty academy..

mcm klaka jugak la lpas gunting tu..he keep complaining haircut tu xsesuai dgn dy...

abg..now i know u sgt2 conservative..hehe

and half an hour lepas tu tros carik toilet nak btolkan the way he likes..

dear..laen kali ckp ngan org tu ye u nak haircut mcm mane ye..precisely!

hehe..

amir ske mcm ni..bukan mcm atas ni (ignore the background please)..

btw..dear..i like both..

hehe..

thanks for dropping by...

i have sooo much fun..

 and test td..bley la jwb sket2..

enjoy your holiday..ksian xdpt ikot mama ngan abh pg uk..

jg rumah baek2..

sorry la diz few months bz sket and xdpt nak kluar slalu sgt..

before this mmg jrg kluar kot..

itu yg syg ske..

cause we have so much to tell..

and so much to share..

take care,

ilysm!

syg~

jOURnal?

this is what u have been missed last week..

1) Monday- SInce da dpt carry mark last week, class anatomy hari ni more tu revising back past years questions and what might come out this year..klau tgk blk semester lepas, hint yg mama lim bg sume kluar exam..turn out sy take for granted je..and jwap pon mcm ape tah..(klau sape pena bace post dlu2 tau la knape sy xdpt jwb)..heh..and mdm lim sgt upset tgk "sofa2" yg baru digunakan tidak smpai dua sem diconteng2 oleh mereka yg xbertanggungjawab..dkt rumah mereka xde sofa mcm ni agaknye..haha

2) Tuesday- ok hari kelas mmg melampau2..9am-10 pm..berhenti hanye utk solat dan mkn shj..da la pkai uniform..mmg lpas pkl 5 je sume da serabai da..tdung mangkuk yg cantik 2 pon da bersimpang siur..lpas maghrib tu majoriti muke da xmcm org da..jasad je dlm kelas..hakikatnya semua da merewang pikir ape nak mkn blk ni  (klau cafe still bukak)..

3) wednesday- susulan dari kejadian sofa kene conteng..kami kene gotong royong bersihkan kelas..amek sabun gosok blk ink2 yg melekat x tanggal2 tu..xde sorang pon ngaku..jd semua kene buat..

4) Breast self examination (BSE) and testicular self examination (TSE)!!haha..emm..kne buat health education..and one of the guy (luqman) kene demo blk mcm mane nak buat BSE..he knows better compared to us, women..and of course TSE none of the girls were allowed since we dont have testis..hehehe..

sy mcm berminat la nak dgr psal BSE ni sbb dlu pena bt clinical breast examination (CBE) dkt government hospital suatu mase dlu, before masuk uitm..MALE doctor yg bt okayyyy..so sy nak tau btol ke care dy buat..kot2 nak amek kesempatan ke..hahaha..nasib baek btol!klau x..msuk court..haha

5) friday- we have test, and class on the afternoon...and sy bt vdeo call dgn kwn baik sy dlu..nurain othman..lame btol xtgk dy..hantar laptop kat k long (amir's sister) utk di past kan ke amir untuk dibaik pulih dan di install kan mane ptot...thank YOU abg..heh..agak gedik disitu..btw..hari jumaat ptot xde kelas..so sgt2 frustrated..

6) saturday- ade modul khas utk budak2 uitm..sumpah mls gle nak pg..drpd pkl 9am-6pm..ceramah and ptg treasure hunt..heh..team sy dpt 1st mase treasure hunt tu...but still...gle serik masuk uitm kne pg ceramah every sem..

7) sunday- :)))) nnt sy cerita

u see..mcm mane ruti n harian sy..kelas 8-5..tlg la fhm..this week will be the last week we are going to attend classes because next week...praktikal!!!ngeh..sem ni hospital sg buloh plak..ok la..msul labor room and mandikan baby byk2..haha..nak ske ke nak nangis..xtau la nak rase ape skrg..tgk je la nnt..

slow~

Spm results!

Akhirnya, hari yang ditunggu-tunggu oleh kesemua pelajar lepasan SPM dan STAM 2009 tiba jua. Keputusan SPM dan STAM 2009 telah pun diumumkan pada hari ini (awal pagi tadi) dan saya jangka hampir kesemua pelajar terbabit telah mengetahui keputusan masing-masing. Tahniah buat yang berjaya dan teruskan perjalanan anda ke peringkat pengajian yang seterusnya.

Pada tahun ini, seramai 7,987 calon Sijil Pelajaran Malaysia (SPM) memperoleh gred cemerlang (A+, A, dan/atau A-) bagi semua mata pelajaran yang diduduki, berbanding 6,277 pada 2008.

Ketua Pengarah Pelajaran Tan Sri Alimuddin Mohd Dom berkata daripada jumlah itu, seramai 214 calon berjaya memperoleh gred Cemerlang Tertinggi (A+) bagi penggredan baru yang mula diperkenalkan tahun lalu.

Turut diumumkan ialah pelajar terbaik bagi SPM 2009 iaitu Gladys Tan Yee Kim dari Sekolah Menengah Kebangsaan (SMK) Green Road, Kuching, Sarawak dan Sekolah Menengah Sains Seremban, Negeri Sembilan sebagai sekolah terbaik.

10 Pelajar Terbaik SPM 2009

1. Gladys Tan Yee Kim (SMK Green Road Kuching, Sarawak)
2. Grace Kiew Sze-Ern (SMK (P) Sri Aman, Petaling Jaya, Selangor)
3. Khadijah Ahmad Jais (SM Agama Persekutuan Labu, Negeri Sembilan)
4. Akmal Hidayat Sabri (SMK Derma, Kangar, Perlis)
5. Syamilah Mahali (Kolej Tunku Kurshiah Seremban, Negeri Sembilan)
6. Lee Wei Ling (SMK Taman Melawati, Selangor)
7. Nur Syuhadah Muhamad (SM Sains Tengku Muhammad Faris Petra, Kota Bharu, Kelantan)
8. Lai Yin Kwin (SMK Tinggi Melaka, Melaka)
9. Corinne Gunn Huey Min (SMK Taman Melawati, Selangor)
10. Hu May Khei (SMK Convent, Taiping, Perak).

10 Sekolah Terbaik SPM 2009

1. Sekolah Menengah Sains Seremban, Negeri Sembilan
2. Kolej Islam Sultan Alam Shah, Klang, Selangor
3. Sekolah Berasrama Penuh Integrasi (SBPI) Gombak, Jalan Sungai Pusu, Gombak, Kuala Lumpur
4. Sekolah Tun Fatimah, Johor Bahru, Johor
5. Sekolah Menengah Sains Alam Shah, Kuala Lumpur
6. SBPI Rawang, Selangor
7. Sekolah Menengah Sains Muar, Johor
8. SBPI Temerloh, Pahang
9. SMK Infant Jesus Convent, Johor Bahru, Johor
10. Kolej Tunku Kurshiah Seremban, Negeri Sembilan..

Ringkasan ini dipetik daripada BERNAMA

emm..dimana mozac? ini reputasi tidak bagus ni selepas dpt title SBT..haha..
xpela..btw..xtau pon result mozac mcm mane..hopefully ok la kot..manela tau dpt no 11 ke dlm malaysia..atas pagar gitu..hehe..
mase batch aku dlu pon agak trok kot..xtau dpt no brape..rase sgt bersalah menjadi slh seorang yg menjatuhkan percentage mozac..

maaf kwn-kwn..
maaf cikgu2..

slow~